With everything I had in me I held it together. I sucked it up and pushed away the feelings that were trying to take over my heart. This time I used my head. It was the right thing to do. Sometimes even if it hurts your heart you have to do what sounds right in your head. Its weird, the pain you feel in your chest, like someone is throwing rocks at your heart over and over until it has sunk into your stomach. Its horrible, breaks you down bit by bit until you are so insecure its taken over your life. It has changed your personality. You smile but its not really you being happy, its just your cheeks moving up to make it seem like your okay. Its your body fighting for you to stay alive and not loose your being. Because after being hurt you don’t believe in yourself. You tear yourself down and make yourself weaker. But all that time you wasted being sad you could have been trying to move on. Let go. Forget. Because the past is past as hard as it is to except at times. Once its gone its not coming back. Changing the future is easier then trying the change the past.
